1 - Tell us how your project(s) were started.
FIRST OF ALL I
AM GOING TO TYPE IN ALL CAPS BECAUSE I SEE YOU HAVE A QUESTION ABOUT CONSPIRACIES
AND YOU'RE GODDAMN RIGHT THERE ARE FUCKING CONSPIRACIES!
SECOND, I
HAVE ALREADY TOLD THE STORY ABOUT HOW I WAS IN AN INDUSTRIAL BAND AND I WAS
SUPPOSED TO LEARN HOW TO DRUM AND LEARN HOW TO DO PROGRAMMING BUT I ENDED UP
DOING A LOT OF ACID AND DISCOVERING/INVENTING NOISE INSTEAD
THIRD, I
HAVE BEEN MAKING ART SINCE I KNEW HOW TO CRAWL. I USED TO BE AMBIDEXTROUS AND
I USED TO DRAW AND COLOR WITH BOTH HANDS, SOMETIMES AT THE SAME TIME, UNTIL
SOME FUCKING FASCIST TEACHER LADY FORCED ME TO FUCKING CHOOSE A HAND SO NOW
I WRITE AND DRAW WITH MY LEFT HAND AND I DO EVERYTHING ELSE WITH MY RIGHT HAND
LIKE SOME KIND OF FUCKING SCHMUCK, AND MY HANDWRITING IS NOT ONE IOTA BETTER.
I AM A FUCKING HANDWRITING ANALYST NOW AND I WISH I COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND
TELL THAT FUCKING CUNT HOW FUCKING TOXIC HER FUCKING STUPID FASCIST ASS IS,
I'M NOT SURE WHICH POINTER FINGER I WOULD USE THOUGH
I WOULD SAY
"FOURTH" BUT I'M NOT GOING TO BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN THE STUFF ABOUT
THE LAW OF "THIRDS" BUT I HAVE A PROJECT CALLED BLOOD RHYTHMS THAT
STARTED 12 YEARS AGO UNDER A DIFFERENT, STUPID NAME AND IT WAS BASED ON THE
IDEA OF USING MULTIPLE HORN PLAYERS WHO DON'T KNOW HOW TO PLAY; DOING DRONES,
AND TOMORROW I AM GOING TO DO A SHOW WHICH IS BASICALLY THAT AGAIN EXCEPT I
AM THE ONLY ONE THAT STILL DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO PLAY, BUT WE HAVE HAD ALL KINDS
OF DRUMMERS AND BONE FLUTE PLAYERS AND POWER TOOLS, CAR PARTS, SYNTHS, GUITARS
ETC. WE HAVE A 2ND LP WAITING FOR A GODDAMN TEST PRESSING FOR FUCKING EVER NOW
ok ok, I will stop.
2 - What does music, in its entirety, mean to you?
Some of it is more emotional than others, but I have never experienced a more
palpable, yet indiscernable connection between the soul, the ego, and just in
general, the physiology of human existence than when listening to music (or
noise) that resonates with me.
3 - What does art, in its entirety, mean to you?
When it is done in a sincere, ecstatic, and fully realized manner, it is a reminder that we all are part of one consciousness and art is a reliable way to remind ourselves of that. When it is not sincere, when it is not something like "the ocean roars while others splash about in the bath", it is droll entertainment, propaganda, or novelty, and some of that can be true art too, if it's ecstatic enough. I don't enjoy flash-in-the-pan materialism for long.
4 - Who is your
favorite author, and why?
Manly P. Hall. He comes to me in my dreams sometimes.
He is benevolent, but not boring (at least not to me). He has a reputation for
being boring, but he has just the right pacing and sense of detail to me. Most
people don't have much attention for details. I prefer all of the details.
Yet, at the same time, I believe that Mr. Hall is getting to the point as quickly
as he can, it's just not fast enough for some. I don't find him to be blubbering
on like so many other writers.
I have never read another writer on occult matters or "metaphysics",
etc, that was so balanced and selfless in his execution. He is like a wise and
benevolent grandpappy.
And of course, he was a hypnotist, and I am a certified hypnotherapist, so I
think it helps me get along with him. He hypnotized Bela Lugosi to actually
be terrified on the set of "Black Friday". I wish he had recorded
some of his sessions.
I am more inspired by peoples' lives than their works sometimes. Jodorowsky
would be up there, too, but I don't get carried away by his fiction writing.
5 - As your best friend, describe yourself.
He is not flakey and he can't stand people who are. He is honest to a fault and loyal to the people who deserve it. He is an old soul who is also young at heart. Those "get off my lawn" types are not actually old souls, just cranky. He is very romantic and sensitive, but not immature or prissy. He has a lot of ideas, and the ones that get finished are the ideas that survived his brutal hierarchal pecking order of constant chiseling and stratification. He is not mean-spirited or sneaky, and he sticks up for others better than he sticks up for himself. He doesn't need to be reinforced by social circles to have his identity.
6 - As your worst enemy, describe yourself.
My worst enemy
would be too one-dimensional to entertain, but I will follow suit in this way:
He has poor
boundaries, and could easily be described as a train wreck or a fuck up if it
weren't for the fact that he manages to be balanced enough to help others sometimes.
He sticks up for other people pretty well, but when it comes to sticking up
for himself, he tends to be unable to get mad until later, when it's too late.
He is neither brutish enough nor brainy enough to fit in with most anyone. His
life is a tornado of unfinished ideas. In his regular routine of trying to be
better at sticking up for himself in the moment, he tends to subconsciously
self-sabotage friendships or consciously burn bridges at the first sign of a
bullshitter or a backstabber. This is not a good period of time for him to be
alive, because for most people, being full of shit is a survival tactic, and
they'll make you look crazy for sticking up for yourself these days.
7 - If your persona were immortalized as a cartoon character, who would it be?
I'm not sure how
to answer this question. I feel like it is a trick question. When I was a kid,
I was the shortest in school and I got into a lot of fights. After a while,
when hitting people in the body didn't help, and I was too short to punch them
in the face, I would get inside and jump up and headbutt them. I knocked out
kids' teeth and broke noses. They started calling me "Bonk", the caveman
character, equivalent to Nintendo's "Super Mario", but for the newfangled
"TurboGraphics" system. "Bonk"'s main defense was the headbutt.
I had a bruise on my forehead like Wesley Willis for most of my childhood.
I will also
say, that at a certain point, I sold beer at baseball games, and I used to have
a character named "Nightcrawler" that yelled a lot. It was sort of
like an Archie Bunker/Redd Foxx/Chris Farley/Sam Kinison/Tony Clifton kind of
character. People would try to get me to scream about hot dogs on demand. OR,
one of my little gags was to be that character pretending to be an opera singer,
and I would sing the most abrasive opera I could. If the crowd asked me to do
it again, I would give them a little anecdote about this one cartoon with Daffy
Duck. Daffy Duck is going to a job interview or an audition, claiming to be
a magician. He says, in so many words, that his "trick" is to drink
a bunch of cyanide and eat explosives (you know, where they blow up inside his
stomach and make a big bubble and then he coughs up smoke, etc), or he stabs
himself with knives and drinks water, and the water comes out of the holes in
his stomach, etc... and so on... So the interviewer eventually claps and cheers,
offers him the job, and says something like "When can you start?".
To this, Daffy Duck collapses and dies, and his angel comes up through the floor
with a harp and says to him, "well, I can only do that trick once!".
8 - Do you think there are conspiracies against the "everyday person"?
There are conspiracies
everywhere there is money to be made. There are fucking subsonic frequencies
and subliminal messages and microchips, nanotechnology, antibiotics, estrogen,
fucking racooon's assholes in the foods and when you go to the dollar store
and get calamari that is really pig's assholes man IT IS NOT SEAFOOD and monsanto
is trying to help the fucking Rothchilds eliminate 33% of the population, and
I believe in weather control and chemtrails and the fluoride in the water and
all of that shit man. HOT DOGS ARE MADE OF COW'S ASSHOLE, RATS, AND A CERTAIN
AMOUNT OF HUMAN BITS. IT'S NOT EVEN REAL ASSHOLES ANYMORE, IT IS CLONED ASSHOLES!
THERE IS A CURE FOR CANCER AND YOU CAN'T HAVE IT BECAUSE IT IS NOT PROFITABLE!
THERE HAS BEEN A WAY TO GROW TOBACCA THAT DOESN'T CAUSE CANCER SINCE THE 60'S
AND YOU CAN'T HAVE IT BECAUSE IT ISN'T PROFITABLE ENOUGH. HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN
SYRUP CAUSED AN INCREASE IN BRAIN LESIONS BY 90% WHEN IT WAS INTRODUCED TO THE
MARKET IN THE EARLY 80S, YOU FUCKING SHEEP! NESTLE REALLY IS TRYING TO PRIVATIZE
WATER! THE FACT THAT CARS ARE STILL FUELED BY OIL IS RIDICULOUS. THE FACT THAT
PEOPLE ARE STILL CUTTING DOWN TREES INSTEAD OF USING HEMP FOR PAPER IS RIDICULOUS.
IT IS A CONSPIRACY, AND IT PERSISTS BECAUSE WE ARE ALL LAZY, STUPID, AND DISMISSIVE
OF THINGS THAT DON'T SEEM SAFE, AND SCIENCE IS A WAY FOR PEOPLE TO FEEL SAFE
MORE THAN IT IS A MEANS OF PROGRESSING ... AND THERE ARE REPTILIANS! RONALD
REAGAN = 666! ASK COREY FELDMAN!
THERE ARE PHALLIC SYMBOLS ON THE COVER OF THE LITTLE MERMAID MOVIE TO SUBCONSCIOUSLY
TURN THE CHILDREN INTO BRAINWASHED WHORES AND LADY GAGA IS AN MK-ULTRA TRANNY
FROM SPACE. JFK WAS KILLED OFF! IT WAS THE GRASSY KNOLL! WAKE UP! I'M IN YOUR
HOUSE RIGHT NOW!
Serious:
When 9/11 happened, me and two other friends sat in the same room, and heard
a loud, clearly synthetic cicada type of tone and fell asleep simultaneously
right where we were sitting. We woke up at the same time, too. I have experienced
things I can't really talk about. I COULD GO ON, BUT I'VE ALREADY SAID TOO MUCH.
9 - What do you do with your spare or free time?
I work on sounds, visual art, reading, writing, journaling, martial arts, exercise, ideas in general. Sometimes I actually finish something. I also do psychic readings for strangers on the internet. For skeptics, I would recommend the book "Extraordinary Knowing". It is written by a psychoanalyst who chased down physicists, biologists, neuroscientists, and so forth to get raw data, and there is plenty of it proving psychic phenomena, despite the fact that the CIA claimed their studies in ESP were "inconclusive" after 24 years of research. It also refrains from kittying to the kooks and charlatans out there.
10 - Please give us your interpretation of "the meaning of life".
I have been casually
thinking of an alternative to that old quote "The Price of Existence is
Eternal Warfare". I would point out that the Buddhist line commonly interpreted
as "Life is Suffering" is actually more like "Life is Disquietude".
I don't look
at life as "warfare", per se, because I have not been to a real war,
and I wouldn't last long because they would shoot me with friendly fire before
I even left the base, but I do look at life as not very peaceful unless you
understand that you're not meant to be complacent. Finding peace without complacency
is the meaning of life, to me, and that means getting out of your "comfort
zone" and all that, but also, really, just getting to a point where you
observe the so-called "highs and lows" as something that you just
cruise through either way.
It can mean
anything you want. It depends on your "oratorium", or the "observer
effect", depending on what your brain chemistry is capable of. People with
lower levels of dopamine don't believe in things well. People with higher levels
of dopamine don't tend to be the most intelligent folks, but like light, it
is possible for reality to be observed in contrasting but equally valid ways.
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